It was a rather sleepless night. I left a message at nine fifteen and at ten oclock for Michael to give me a call and I heard nothing. This is really shitty that he did not call me back because he told me at five that he would call me back later on. I probably need to make some moves on getting the car back and having them slow down on the phone use. I am not sure how much Michael is drinking now but I don't think that it looks too good. I really need to keep on  top of this shit. I hope that he lands a job today somewhere. It will be interesting to see if he calls me today because I think I will wait quite a while before I make a move. Of course, I always say that.

I waited until eight fifty and then I called. It rang for a long time and finally he answered much to my relief. However I think he was just waking up. He said that he had gone to sleep early last night and heard none of my calls and mumbled about missing some other calls. I tried to tell him in a pretty direct way that it had not been a very good experience for me. He said he was sorry twice and I suppose he was but I hope he has some time to think about it and give me a little better explanation. He said he was going out job hunting immediately. He also said he would call me later on in the day. I was about ready to make a trip to Portland.

Michael called at noon and said he and Katie were at the mall applying for jobs. He said he had one positive deal at a service station. The guy at restuarant took his application and would call him back. He said he did not go to the AA meeting but that he had not had a beer for four days and he was trying to stay away from it. He really does not know what to say to me I guess. I hope that they find something soon since they will be needing more money. He said he was watching a movie with Mikey and fell asleep. If he was sleeping with Mikey it looks like he would have gotten up earlier.

The latest call was the PO said that he had to come back to Grants Pass for at least six months. He wants to take the car and it sounds like he is going this afternoon. Well, maybe he will be able to find a job and maybe we will be able to meet in Portland from time to time. He said that if he moved again he would move to Hermiston because I was about the only person that really cared about him. Maybe by that time he will have enough work history to go to work at Marlette or some place else. I guess I could decide to move the renter out and move back into the house. Who knows. It is porobably the best move at this time. It sounds like he will move in with his relatives and start going to those diversion classes. This whole situation never ceases to be a can of worms. I hope I can keep track of Mikey.

More conversations as he is coming to grips with the move back to Grants Pass. He is really going to miss MIkey and having fun with him. We probably need to set up a definite time when he can go down and see him. Maybe in a week or so we can make the trip. Of course here I am spending money like a man that is made of gold. I wonder if he will make the move today. He has to be there by Friday. He said he can get a job quickly in Grants Pass and maybe move into a vacant room that a cousin has. Maybe after a month or so he can move up here and then the contact with Mikey would be easier.

He called again and said telling Mikey was the hardest thing he has ever done in his life and that he cried like a girl. I told him it was not like a girl it was like a human being. It was important for Mikey to know that they were going to be together again soon. I could whip by and pick him up and take him down there for a weekend visit in a couple weeks. He could plan on going to Portland and seeing him also in a couple of weeks. He said that the PO was going to try in a couple of months  to work the transfer again but this time try to get it in Hermiston where he could get a job and have a more stable life. The thing is that he needs to get a driver's license and then he will be able to move around and get things going.

What can I say that I have not already said today. I have seen some sad things in my life but this has to be one of the saddest. I am not sure what would have happened if Michael had stayed in Portland. At least he had Mikey. Now he has to look forward to visits and getting his shit together so he can get the hell out of there. He should have Mikey pretty often during the year I would think. He might get him all summer and then on Holidays and other times during the year. Pretty Soon Mikey is going to want to live some place all the time. Hopefully it will be with Michael. I am not sure where Michael is tonight - I expect that he is on his way to Grants Pass.

I tried matching Blood Diamonds but gave up at eight oclock. I hope I can sleep tonight. At least I sort of know what is happening. It may mean that we are a day closer living around one another. I have to find out whether he wants to live with me or live alone.

I guess the Most Memorable Positive Moment of the day was when Michael said that his mother said she did not know why in hell he didn't go to Hermiston and be around me since I seemed to be the only person in the world that really cared about him. Amen!