The plans are to visit Joel in Ontario. I need to keep control of my emotions. The point is to make him feel better. I should be thinking about putting some insulation around my water pipes again. It was near freezing this morning so if I want those plants I should bring them in. I plan on getting a card for Mikey and some McDonald treats.

I made the trip and had the session with Joel. That poor kid - he had to sit there and listen to me go through the whole month and a half of drama. I really don't know what he thought. There was a couple of times he teared up. One was when I told him MIke's mom sent her regards. Then he told me about the night he could not cry and just tossed anbd turned. What agony he went through. He told me that it seemed that every male that he bonded with died. His dad, his girl friend's dad and now Michael. He seemed to know all those people that Michael had met such as Flash, Tugboat, etc. They were all ex-cons and probably part of the West Side Gang. It seems like a huge mistake now that Michael ended up in Portland with all those characters ready and waiting. Joel seemed to have had the same message I had about Michael and drugs. I messaged Kate about the cell phone and I check the paper and Michael's obit was in there. I sent it to Annie. Finally I called her and asked some questions about the cell phone and did not get much. She is going down there on Monday and check for his wallet and wrist watch. I would like to have those cards out of his wallet. I finally did talk to Katie and asked about Mikey. She said he was taking a bath and would call me later. A little over an hour later he called and we talked for a while. I asked about Halloween and he was not even sure when it was. He asked me to Thanksgiving with him. I said sure even though it sounded like it was some place different. His leg is still bad:). Sweet kid - but I am not sure what the price of being around him will be - I need to do it for Michael if nothing else.

Nancy called and wanted me to come to Bend for Thanksgiving. I declined and she expected me to. I guess she had passed the same message on to Art.