I am not sure what the day holds. I hope that it is positive and people end up feeling better toward themselves and each other. I sure did not appreciate the vibes I was getting in that house of Annie’s last night. I can see where Michael could feel abused. I would really like to know what Michael said about me to Katie. If he just tolerated me because I had money and was keeping him afloat. I thought that our relationship was going down hill the weekend that I left him at Unicorn Motel – things were never the same after that. I thought that there appeared an ugly side of Mikey when his grandmother bumped him and he glared at her. Oh well, I remember Michael said there was aside of him that surprised even him when he got uncorked. I think that Katie feels the reproach I have for her and she would not take much off me. I feel like I should drift away as soon as convenient and possible. I am not sure what effect this will have on Mikey – but he will survive through it all.

I picked up Annie and Mikey and left about eight o’clock. Katie and Jonah drive the Topaz on a trip that did not have to be made. She had some lame excuse she needed to see her father and Jonah would see his kid. An uneventful trip but I was a little pissed. I am not good company for Annie I think and it was a strain. We arrived and found the place but no one was there. We got a drink and then people started showing up. A rather slow beginning. Gradually people showed up and the crowd grew. At About two o’clock I started talking – good or bad – and read Joel’s message. I asked for people to tell me some stories and they gradually all came out. I think it was a successful meeting. They took the ashes and they took the pictures. I think I met all the cousins and we talked and cried. I talked at length to Michael’s mom and daughter that lives at home. Katie had some lame excuse of why they were late showing up – something about a car accident – which I do not believe. Mikey wore the shirts and seemed to like them, which was something of relief. He said he had three moms and no dad – I volunteered as his granddad. He did not seem that impressed. One of the biggest shockers to come out of the meeting was that Michael was not Italian but Indian. I guess I am somewhat embarrassed by some of the conversations I know we had about Native Americans. I really felt stupid. I guess the dilemma now is whether Annie and Mikey are going to stay a while tomorrow and ride home with Katie in the Topaz. I have a call in on the car right now so I may get someone to come over and pick it up tomorrow would be a great move if I could pull it off.