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I need to send Nolan some of the articles on the ranch. I feel tired about Mikey. It just seems that nothing goes right with that situation. I sometimes think it is time for me to back off and get some other diversion. I have spent more money than I should and there is no way I can get things the way I want them. I would love to know what Mikey was getting at last night. He is not dumb so I think he was trying to tell me something but somehow I was not getting the message. I hope he gets the rabbit today and get to buy some snacks for himself.
I really fucked up a container today. I loaded one and did not check the booking and it was supposed to be loaded at Oregon Hay and it went to Portland. What a fuck up. They are going to bring it back tomorrow. It is really a bummer. I heard from MM and she has not had much success talking to Katie. I called Mikey after work and got the voice mail again and the same at seven ten. It is really frustrating. I am pretty depressed and I am not very much into anything right now. I feel pretty worthless and unwanted. Things should be better than this. I should not be at the mercy of these weird people. I am alone and discouraged that is for sure. What in the hell would Michael do? Not give up that is for sure also. Tomorrow everything will be going my way. |