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Make Me an Instrument of Your Peace

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love,
Where there is injury, pardon
Where there is doubt, faith,
Where there is despair, hope,
Where there is darkness, light,
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much
seek to be consoled as to console,
not so much to be understood as to understand,
not so much to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
it is in dying that we awake to eternal life.

I have sort of been toying with the idea of sending Katie a letter that will arrive on Monday and send her copies of the email and my answer. I would probably state that I am not sure when I will be returning for a visit. I do not make it a practice to be in those places and with people where I do not feel welcome. Until I get a specific invitation I will probably suspend any further visits. It could be counter productive and pretty much end the relationship or could sort of set some guidelines on further interaction. It is certainly a gamble. I am inclined at the moment to stop sending money for Mikey’s support until I visit with him again.

At seven oclock this morning he called me and said that he just wanted to say hi and let me know that he would probably not see me this weekend. I told him that is what I understood and not to worry we would see each other again. I checked to see how he was and he said good as always.

It was really a pretty boring day as I continue to stew over the Mikey situation. I am not really sure what I am going to do. It seems a shame to sack it all but I have it on my mind. I guess I need to check with Mikey also. I wrote to both Joel and Nolan and they should be in the mail tonight.

I looked around and tried to find Tom Weightman but all the doors seemed closed today. It is possible that he is living in Devils Lake North Dakota. I sent Bob a fax in Boise and tried to get a hold of Craig in Hilo. Nothing was current or got a response.