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I had the oil changed in the Expedition and had lunch in TriCities. Mikey called for more minutes but could not catch him later in the day. He was supposed to be in Grants Pass with his Uncle????

If there is any kindness I can show, or any good thing I can do to any fellow human being, let me do it now, and not defer or neglect it, as I shall not pass this way again.

Thanks so much for bringing that information to my attention. Certainly invigorating thinking andwriting for the advancement of mankind.

The planet I am currently inhabiting is pretty diverse and I certainly feel like I am in the minority -and that is reality. As far as I can figure I can adapt or cease to exist.

If any of us arre going to survive we need to recognize this diversity and work through to the solution not the elimination. Personally I have seen enough conflict, confrontation, and mindless rhetoric. I think it is time to give cooperation, communication, and compromise a chance.

I really don't think the "great old days" were that great. I think the future looks challenging but actually pretty good - especially if we get some fresh energy and give some new thoughts a chance to change a few things.

I sometimes wonder if this country would have come into existence if the "conservative brain-trust" had prevailed in 1776. Granted Obama is just as human as the rest and is a Harvard educated lawyer but he is young enough to get smarter, glib enough to pronouce nuclear, and apparently does not have a swollen prostrate nor is pre-menopausal.

Think about it but don't be afraid of it.

Unk, the Democrat

That is interesting. He called me last night a couple of times. Once when he was getting on the train and later about half way to Eugene. He described the food available and seemed to be having a good time. He mentioned the fact we could talk whenever we wanted.

He called me about an hour ago and said he was down to 12 minutes so I put some more time on. I imagine he will call me back. I think he is okay but I think if you are concerned give him a call – of course, if Katie is around he is probably not going to be able to say much.

I mailed off the support gift card this morning with some snack cash for Mikey. I enclosed the following note to Katie:

HI KATIE- - -

I HAVE SENT THE WEEKLY $50.00 GIFT CARD ALONG WITH THE PHONE SERVICES TO MIKEY AS FINANCIAL AND MORAL SUPPORT FOR HIS WELL BEING. I PLAN TO DO SO AS LONG AS I AM ABLE – NOT AS AN OBLIGATION OR LEVER TO SEE AND BE WITH MIKEY – BUT RATHER AS AN ACT OF LOVE IN THE MEMORY OF MICHAEL CUSHMAN AND OF MY LOVE FOR MIKEY. I WOULD, INDEED, PREFER TO HAND THEM TO HIM EACH WEEK, HOWEVER REALISTICALLY I KNOW THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE.

I DO FEEL THAT MIKEY AND I HAVE DEVELOPED A RATHER UNUSUAL, UNIQUE, AND STRONG BOND THAT IS POSITIVE FOR US BOTH. I AM SURE THAT IT WILL WORK ITS WAY THROUGH OUR MUTUAL EXISTENCE AS IT IS MEANT TO BE.

IN NO WAY HAVE I EVER MEANT TO HARASS OR PUT PRESSURE ON YOU ABOUT MY VISITS IN TIME OR FREQUENCY. IN FACT, MUCH OF WHAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DO WAS TAKE SOME PRESSURE OFF YOU AND GIVE YOU SOME PEACE OF MIND THAT HE WAS SAFELY SPENDING QUALITY TIME WITH SOMEONE WHO CARED FOR HIM AND RESPECTED YOU AND YOUR WISHES.

HOWEVER, I DO THINK THAT SOME CONSISTENCY AND PREDICTABILITY IN THE ARRANGEMENTS ARE OF VITAL IMPORTANCE FOR MIKEY’S GOOD MENTAL HEALTH AND FEELINGS OF SECURITY AND MY PEACE OF MIND. I DEFINITELY THINK IT WOULD BE COUNTER PRODUCTIVE TO HIM FOR ME TO SUDDENLY DISAPPEAR FROM HIS WORLD AND WITHDRAW MY SUPPORT.

I WOULD CONSIDER IT A PRIVILEGE, HONOR, AND PLEASURE IF YOU WOULD ALLOW US TO CONTINUE TO HAVE FREQUENT VISITS WITH ONE ANOTHER WHENEVER IT DID NOT DIRECTLY INTERFERE WITH YOUR PLANS TO BE WITH HIM. IN MY OPINION THE LENGTH OF TIME OF THE PROPOSED VISITS IS NOT AS IMPORTANT AS THE FREQUENCY.

I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO HAVE YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT ANY CONCERNS YOU MIGHT HAVE ABOUT MY CONTINUED VISITATIONS. I BELIEVE THAT MIKEY WOULD LIKE TO CONTINUE SEEING ME ON A REGULAR BASIS.

I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IT WOULD BE A DISTINCT PRIVILEGE TO BE CONSIDERED MIKEY’S “SAFETY NET” AND BE THERE FOR HIM IN ANY CAPACITY AS LONG AS I AM WILLING AND ABLE TO DO SO.

WITH LOVE

PAT R    Your mom emailed the other day about my visitations i.e. this note.

What do you think? Am I digging a hole for myself?

“Keep your head up and a smile on your face.” 

Until later

Patr