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Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.

I ACCEPT LOVE WITH GRATITUDE. I AM OPENED AND MADE WHOLE BY ITS BEAUTY. THIS ANGEL CAN HELP YOU VALUE YOUR SEXUALITY, CHERISH THE GIFTS OF LOVE AND AN OPEN HEART, AND RESPECT YOUR OWN TENDER FEELINGS.

O Lord, grant me to greet the coming day in peace, help me in all things to rely upon your holy will. In every hour of the day reveal your will to me. Bless my dealings with all who surround me. Teach me to treat all that comes to throughout the day with peace of soul and with firm conviction that your will governs all. In all my deeds and words, guide my thoughts and feelings. In unforeseen events, let me not forget that all are sent by you. Teach me to act firmly and wisely, without embittering and embarrassing others. Give me strength to bear the fatigue of the coming day with all that it shall bring. Direct my will, teach me to pray. And you, yourself, pray in me. Amen.

O God, whose love restores the brokenhearted of this world: pour out your love, we beseech you, upon those who feel lonely, abandoned, or unloved. Strengthen their hope to meet the days ahead; give them the courage to form life-giving friendships; and bless them with the joy of your eternal peace. Amen.

Do you reckon I am pretty much through with the Cushman affair? I guess when I saw that plastic bag floating away from me the other morning it pretty much meant that Michael was leaving as well. I really have been pretty well cleaned out by those people and I should probably make a break for it while there are a few things left. I think the email from MM last night pretty well caps everything. Everybody is going to be just fine without me. It is all right. There is probably no way that Mikey will give up that life style and there is certainly no hold I have on him that is going to make much difference one way or the other. If anything did happen I could not be involved much more than I am right now. I guess the interesting thing is that I really feel pretty much blah about everything.

I lost a tooth last night when I was using the waterpick. It doesn’t hurt so I will probably just live with it and let the hole close up. That on top of everything else seem somehow appropriate.

I sent the video back and got some lunch at Taco Bell. We are supposed to meet in La Grande tomorrow at one clock at McDonalds according to Nancy. I will have to get Ellen a gift and pick up some money and fill the car with gas before I take off. I called Mikey at six and nine and no answer. What a shithead. MM wrote twice trying to keep my spirits up I guess. Their sense of humor is sort of far out- the story of Mikey taking Dom out to meet Veda and she hugged him and he farted. She said he would not forget him. Oh well, I think I am getting the picture and should let go as much as possible. It is just not worth it. I really feel discouraged.