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The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up; then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field.

Dear God,
I give to you this night. Post angels round my home, my bed, my children, my loves, and everyone. Send angels through the world tonight, to heal the sick and awaken the dead. Let miracles replace the pain in all of us. Lay Your hands on all our eyes,that we might see at last. Amen.

THE ANGEL OF THE MIRACLE OF LOVE. I AM BROUGHT ALIVE BY THE MIRACLE OF LOVE. THE SERAPHIM HELPS ME OPEN MYSELF TO RECEIVING THE LOVE I DESIRE AND CHERISH THE LOVE I HAVE IN MY LIFE. THIS ANGEL ALSO HELPS ME ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT THAT ALL LOVE FLOWS FROM GOD.

If you take a single step toward positive change, that divine energy will take a hundred steps toward you. New worlds and unbelievable possibilities will open up for you. The synchronicities that will begin appearing in your life will become a source of delight and amazement.

I do not feel very enthusiastic about the trip to Eugene. If Mikey is going to give me the old deal of running around with his friend I think I am going to duck out and come on home. There is really no use to stick around there and become unhappy. I think there is a limit to the influence I can have on him anyway. He doesn’t live with me and I think my opinion does not necessarily fit anything he considers important. He likes me buying him stuff and all that. When he told me not to come down last night it really hurt my feelings and I think he did a pretty good job of shutting me out. If I had a good reason for staying in Hermiston or doing something else I would do it in a heart beat. How is this day going to play itself out?

I made the trip and Mikey called around twelve thirty to see where I was. I met him at the park and we went to Mat’s house. He was having a hard time with his bicycle and I got my pump and pumped it up. We went over to Annie’s and Mikey had a new pool for his birthday. Small but adequate. They played around and splashed me. Mike and Mat went to pick up another friend Jas who has long hair and needed a bath. I signed in at the motel. On the way back Mikey called and wanted me to take him and his friends to McDonald’s. I gave them a choice of Chuckie Cheese and it was not a hard choice. That cost about 44 dollars and twenty more dollars for chips. They got rowdy so we left. They wanted to stop at McDonald’s and get a sundae. Fine – Mikey used his card and that was that. He did not eat the sundae and threw it out the window at a car. Katie had called and said that she and Annie were going to get a drink and Mikey could hang out with me and stay all night if he wanted.

I told Mikey to call his mom and he did. They wanted to swim and I was not comfortable and called a halt. From these things escalated out of control. Mikey was adamant that the boys were going to stay. I was not comfortable with that and Mikey threw a fit. He tried to follow them and I grabbed him and that really pissed him off. He was on the phone to Katie – yelling and screaming. He took his bike and rode after the other kids who had come back. I called Katie and went to Mat’s house and met his dad who was washing his truck. A good enough guy who knows his kid is out of control. Katie came and said a few things and nothing was particularly settled in any manner. At least to my satisfaction. He put his bike in her car and I came back to the motel