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It is through giving that we receive, and it is through dying that we are born to eternal life.

THE ARCHANGEL METATRON. I AM UNITED WITH THE SOURCE OF ALL GOODNESS, LOVE, AND CREATIVITY. METATRON HELPS ME TO FIND THE PROPER MEASURE FOR ALL I DO, ACTS AS WITNESS TO THE LOVE I GIVE, AND HELPS ME REALIZE MY POTENTIAL AS A LOVING WORTHWHILE HUMAN BEING.

I know that I've done wrong through my thoughts, my actions, and the things that I've said, sometimes by mistake and sometimes on purpose. I have gone my own way and not put you at the center of my life. I am very sorry and ask that you please forgive me. I thank you that I can ask you this because I truly believe that your Son, Jesus, died in my place and, through Him, I have access to you. Please help me to follow you more closely every day and live a life which gives glory back to you. I pray this in Jesus' name.

This was a day of staying home and saving money. I called Mikey after I got an email from MM saying that he was heading out to Ashland today. It sounds like she has no clue as to what is going on. She is talking about his anger that seemed to be exacerbated with the visit to Cave Junction. On the first try he was taking care of some babies so he could not talk. The second time I called he said he was playing a game and would talk tonight. I tried telling him I might be busy tonight. I checked he was all right and he sounded upset that I would ask.  He said not to send money because the fireworks were too expensive. He said he would like to stink bombs that I thought was a weird choice. It is really hard to figure out what the hell is going on. I guess he still has his DQ ice cream cake card and they were going to try to get it. I sure hate to see him go back to Eugene and being able to roam here and there without answering to anyone. I guess he is still in dirty clothes and the only baths have been the swimming hole.

They mowed the weeds again and there was another $90.00 down the fucking drain. At least it should keep fire away from the trailer. It was 1904 at the hottest and there is a dark cloud to the west.

I talked to Mikey and he sounded better and he was still in GP but would be going back to Eugene tomorrow. I got an email from MM and she said he took a bath and had his clothes washed but hung on to his underwear. He decided to keep the DQ deal until the 4^th of July. I wrote back I had talked to him three times and gotten all kinds of excuses. But he was safe at the moment and that was about all I could ask right now.